Do you sense there’s so much more you could be doing, but you don’t know what it is?
I’ve been there. I’ve experienced the dread that comes when your day begins and the work ahead no longer feels like it’s enough. And I bet you have too.
If you could do anything in the world, what would it be?
Is the work you’re doing now going to get you there?
That’s what worries me. Not that long ago, I had to admit the work I was doing wasn’t getting me any closer to the work I wanted to do. I was spending almost all of my waking hours on something I didn’t really care about. I was supposed to care about it. I had told people I cared about it. But when I was honest with myself, I really didn’t.
Maybe that’s why I once spent two full workdays crocheting an afghan to avoid it. When I was on a deadline. Okay, so I eventually got the work done, but it was nowhere near as good as I knew it could’ve been had I actually tried. But that was the thing — I didn’t want to.
And what feels worse than not wanting to try? Nothing.
I realized I had to find something I wanted to try for. Something I really cared about doing, even if I didn’t do it very well at first. It was kinda cool that I might not be good at it. I would get better eventually. Because I wanted to get better at it. Because the work really mattered.
I’m so glad I finally had that realization, because now I’m here doing work I love every day, working with you and other wonderful people like you. I honestly can’t remember the last time I was in the middle of a client call thinking, “I don’t want to be here.” (Something I used to think all the time.) Now when I’m with my clients, I rarely think about anything at all. I don’t have to think about it because I’m in it.
I’m really in the work. “A life of passion happens when an emotional nature meets a consuming vocation.”
Of course I have my shit days. Who doesn’t? I cried all morning before I was even able to write this. But I wasn’t crying because I was miserable about the work I had in front of me; I was crying because I was scared it wouldn’t reach you.
Because I’m emotionally invested. Because it matters that much to me.
More than anything else, I want you to feel the same way. I want you to know the feeling of being so completely invested in your work, believing undeniably in the positive impact it can have on the world, you sit crying at your computer in desperation that you can rise to the occasion and do it justice.
Desperation is a crazy feeling. But it sure beats apathy.
What are you desperate to do?
Reply below and tell me.
I love you, and I believe in you,
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